I Don’t Love You.
Categories: #besomebody, Featured, Freestyle, Life, Love, Relationships, Writing
I don’t love you with my eyes. They’re too weak, and weary. They’ve watched too much. Followed too many. They are stained, and strained, and frozen. Fixed on the physical. Reckless and uncommitted… Bloodshot. They look, but they don’t see.
I don’t love you with my mind. It wonders, and wanders. Spins in circles. Moves back and forth between yes, no, and maybe… It reasons too much. Asks too many damn questions. Interrogates. Judges… It tries to put you, and place you, and peg you. Shove you into a makeshift box. It tells me to stop. Be smart. Think through… Shut down.
I don’t love you with my body. It soaks in your skin. It swerves with your lines and stumbles with your curves. It makes love to your angles… Stares at your shape… Magnetic and mystified. It’s here, and now, and ready… But it’s not lasting. It’s not familiar with Fate and never been friends with Forever. It feels, but it doesn’t finish.
I don’t love you with my heart. It’s big, but battered. It’s pure, but pained… It’s honest, and open, and hopeful, and true…. It wants. And needs. And longs… But it’s too soft to hold onto these edges. It’s too hard to cushion every fall. Too naive to notice the necessary. Too old to forget the scars…. It cries too much.
I love you with my soul.
My indefinable, undeniable, unmistakable soul… free and flowing … Motion meets Emotion…. Beyond the clutches of doubt, and above the fingers of fear. Deep but not hidden. Strong but not heavy. Soaring and surging and stretching. Moving, yet still… Peaceful. It lifts and comforts and carries. With no thought of distance. No concept of time. No borders or boundaries. Naked and hungry…. Courageous.
I love you with my Soul.
Kash $
Photo by: Brett Watts. Austin, TX. USA.
u should try one of those amateur poetry slam things dude…u could tear it up.
thanks bro. you know, ive been thinking of doing that lately. may need some friends/fam in the audience the first go-round for moral support!
really love the words, love the picture too….where can i get a print/poster of the picture?
thanks SB, appreciate your reading.
We don’t have a poster or print available of this particular picture, but you can find many of our #besomebody cards on our facebook page – http://facebook.com/thebesomebodyblog.
Thanks for your support!
Kash
100% agree with Rick! Another beautiful post… Love the beauty you share with the world… Keep showing us
. Inspiring as always…
Thanks Gurki.
Thanks for all the support and for always reading. $
Yes sir. Definitely need to enter a contest or open mic night in San Fran. You’ve inspired me to start writing again.
Phillip! Man i miss you bro. Come up to visit in SF sometime soon. I really am looking forward to doing some open mic/spoken word type stuff out here… let’s see… and let me know if you ever want to guest post on the blog bro, you got a lot of great wisdom to share. much love, $
*finger snaps*
nice post sir! (tho i am admittedly far too cold-hearted to identify with it all lol)
haha thanks bro. I gotta feeling your heart isnt as cold as you say it is… but your ride, now THATS a diff story!! lol. $
My new favorite post!!! What a beautiful way to describe pure love!! You are such an amazing writer, hope all is well in SF.
Carlita! thanks so much… means a lot.. I hope all is well with you. PS – I bought Aleph the other day, cant wait to begin reading it!
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Very Deep. Very Soulful!
thanks Pops! See you next weekend! 4
1. quit your job
2. move to paris
3. write a book
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lol. That’s the plan bro…. we gotta come through with a few of our Big Ideas first.
Lovely Kash, Simply Lovely. Great to see your creative and artist coming through loud and clear. Hope you are enjoying the beautiful west coast. Daniel
Thank you so much Daniel. Sorry for the delayed response, the site crashed a few weeks back. Hackers! Not completely back to normal yet, but getting there.
Thanks for your kind words. I hope all is well back in the Nati, and P&G. I having a blast with new challenges and new experiences with GoPro, but I definitely miss all of you guys. Come visit soon!
Kash
can I get in trouble for using these for my vows? lol…well said…
Beena! Sorry for the delayed response, the blog crashed a couple weeks back (damn hackers!
( )…. still not totally back to normal, but on its way… Anyway, YES, please use this as your vows, would be honored! Just yell “#besomebody” when you’re done reading them! 
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hope all is well.
Kash
Rendered me speechless….
Thanks as always, Samia.
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Kash
It has been a PLEASURE reading this and getting to know you this week. Count me in as a fan for life and invite me to that poetry slam.
Kelly!! Thank you so much for the nice comment. It was so great to meet you and I hope to stay in touch. It’s been nuts since Alaska, but I finally made it home to SF. My blog has been acting a fool though, the FB/Twitter share buttons crashed and reset.
I’m hoping to get things back up and running soon… How are you? I hope all is well! $
#besomebody.
This is brilliant. The feelings are so raw yet the prose is so refined. It’s been a long time since I last remember reading something so vulnerable and so honest. To be vulnerable requires a demand of energy and strength beyond the ordinary and even beyond the extraordinary. This writing demanded a lot out of the writer and has consequentially resulted in a lot that has been given to the reader. Much appreciated. I am left completely energized and inspired by the sheer beauty of the human soul. Thank you.
Thanks so much Kulsum. I’m glad you connected with this… I believe we all have the capacity to love this deeply, if we’re open to the possibilities. Thanks again, Kash. #besomebody.
Wow. Beautiful imagery, pace…everything. Thank you.
Thank you for reading LoriAnn.
– Kash
I sang this and its one of the most beautiful songs I’ve ever heard. Don’t stop please.
Just saw this. Thank you, Chaise. I’d love to see/hear you sing this! Please share if you have a video/link.
thanks again,
kash
This is one of the most beautiful expressions of love I have ever read. It is gut writing, as I prefer to write myself, no pretense, pure honest emotions. Thank you for your words.
My husband and I have been through an upheaval lately from one of son’s marriage, very bad, which jolted us. We have not lost of love or each other through it, but it has put a terrible strain on the two of us old people, fine until this time. I am going to have this translated into Chinese for his birthday present. It is perfect and says it better than I could have put it myself. It will heal our souls. Thank you again and may Lord Buddha bless you.
Dear Walkingtreewoman,
If it is not too much trouble, would it be alright if I ask for a copy of the chinese translation from you? Please share it with me as I know Kash’s words and message can reach through and touch many souls.
Hope you and your family are doing better now by the way. Stay strong.
kindest regards,
Julaenie
Hi Julaenie,
Thanks for reading and sharing. I just saw your comment. I’d love to help share any way I can. Please let me know.
all the best,
kash
Thank you so much, Walkingtreewoman. I just saw your comment after all these months… and I realize the Universe kept it from me, until the perfect time. To remind me of the important things in life – love, family, courage, commitment… and to rekindle me with my passions. The daily doldrums of life have kept me from sailing to and through my passions lately, and your comment has reminded me to row my own way, even when their is no wind to blow my sail….
I hope you and your husband have found peace and understanding. I truly believe that love – when pure, and real, and true – speaks Soul to Soul, without the barriers or boundaries of our senses… Praying for your healing.
All the best,
Kash
Thank you so much for sharing, and sorry for my late reply. I hope time has mended the hardship you were going through… how are things now? It’s inspiring to see that you both have remained strong even within the tough times. Wishing you all the best.
ps – i would love to see the Chinese version of my post. If you ever did translate, please do share.
kash@besomebodyblog.com. thanks again.
Kash
Beautiful! <3
Thank you, Yashna.
Kash
I just finished watching Les Miserables and I stumbled onto this awesome piece! It just ties it all up! Hope you will write more of these!
Cheers!
Thanks so much Silver… my mind has been occupied by the daily doldrums of life, of late… thanks for the inspiration and reminder to refocus on my passion… hope to have a new post up soon.
best,
kash
Thanks so much Sree. Realizing that true love is senseless, yet soulful. Indescribable but unmistakable… it’s born, bred, and fed from deep within our Soul, past our fears and insecurities. Pure, and raw, and true.
Thank you and all the best,
Kash
very well created… never read anything to which I could connect more than this. You have given words to my troubled thoughts. Sincere regards to you for this wonderful piece that you’ve composed.
Thanks so much for reading and sharing Mini… sometimes our feelings just need to be draped onto paper or scrawled onto pages.. so we can see what we feel…
all the best to you,
Kash
This is beautiful… It’s so true, every word said is dead on when it comes to love!! Amazing <3
Thanks so much for reading and for your kind comment Samira. When we love with our Soul, all our senses will follow.
Kash
love is bad bad
Love is hard. But not bad. Love is life. #besomebody.
Kash
i think you are good for my lips for kissing <3
lol thanks Latisha.
The feeling is divine. Its rare but divine! People who truly realize these feelings are the ones who can never settle for anything less. Solitude is much valued than fake emotions. Solitude is dearer when you know you are honest with your soul. Love is indeed precious and rare!
Bushra – YES.
p;p;p;p;p;p;p;p;pp;
omg she is naked
it was fantastic tnx…
thank you Jisu!
kash
tnx, it was good and Beautiful!!
thanks Amir!
kash
its really good to listen !!!! but i believe ,when your soul start to love ……….. then road of this uncountable pieces will built for every one and it will lead you beyond the million galaxies we can imagine!.
Another excellent post Kash. When you find your true love, your partner in this life it is very different. You’re right – you don’t love with your eyes, or your heart or your head. It is absolutely much deeper and fundamental than that. I am very lucky. I have that love and that ‘life partner’ in my wife Jo. We have been together for 27 years this April and I am more passionate about her each day I wake up! I say again – I am a lucky man. I hope you are too. S
you ARE a lucky man, Simon!
And your wife is a lucky woman.
kash
nice.. really moving… you should sit in cafes and read this to the sound of bongos….:)
haha… i may try that, Zain. Thanks for reading.
This gave me goosebumps seriously !!
i`m out of words, couldn`t be put together any better in words, in fact i never imagined there even a way to scribble these emotions down.
Thank you very much Sidra… Emotion is the best author. All we need to do is write what we FEEL…
thanks for reading.
Kash
Kash,
I don’t know who you are. I don’t know your story. But I know you have moved me. Your words… they have driven me- ignited my fire. I thank you for very indirectly being my strength. I’ve read these blogs posts and tweets and facebook posts, and its help me hold on. It’s help me stop feeling sorry for myself. It’s helped me pick up the pieces and do anything to stay out of a rut. To believe -to really believe in the future God has for me. It showed me I have to work, I have to fight for my place, both physically and mentally, in this world.
A stranger, but in a way my good friend, I thank you so much.
Please keep doing this.